Love and Lust

Love is a thin film transparent

Hidden under is thickly lust!

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Love is water layer over the eye-ball

While lust is the vision organ whole

When lust takes over without fears

Love bleeds in form of tears

Eyes get dried up with lust repent

For the water layer of love spent

Once a drop of love falls down

Never returns back to the crown

Love is a thin film transparent

Hidden under is thickly lust!

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Bright color of a flower is love

The flower itself being the lust

Love vapors make sky furnished

Lust consumed once is finished

Like iron eaten away to rust

Love is a thin film transparent

Hidden under is thickly lust!

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Love is soft, simple and delicate

Lust being beastly and fabricate

Love sustains with care like a fair

Lust knows no care but brutal share

Both survive with care and share

Togetherness of second after the first

Love is a thin film transparent

Hidden under is thickly lust!

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Space is the warmth of love

Matter lusty storms and stones

Open to all choosing warmth or storms

Pain of love or pleasure of bust

Love is a thin film transparent

Hidden under is thickly lust!

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Love is pious, stressed even by touch

Sustains views through watery eyes

But every love has lust hidden behind

Inseparable like body and mind

Lust is not bad under cover of love

But kills love when it becomes first

Love is a thin film transparent

Hidden under is thickly lust!

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Love and lust are games of pleasures

Platonic and physical treasures

Love always gives out its best

While the Lust gets even the worst

Love never fails in giving

Lust failing to get is in disgust

Thus, love leads to happiness

Frustration is in the fate of lust

Love is a thin film transparent

Hidden under is thickly lust!

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Love and lust meet in kissing prison

Like Earth and Sky meet at horizon

It's where love and lust superimpose

Love is just touch of lips

Exchange of saliva lust proposes

Minds unify with touching sentiment

Bodies unify with saliva nourishment

With this, the love stays stable

Even with coexistence of lust

Love is a thin film transparent

Hidden under is thickly lust!

O' My Love !

O' my Love !

I hear you cry -  

Your love is gone

Never to return

You thought of it wrong

Love is in you like a song

Open your eyes

Find it all around

In fragrance of flowers

In oceanic sound

Hence, love, my dear, love !!

O' My Love !

You said - you would get love back

You would resurrect it

No, my dear, it's not gone

For it is immortal

Has been with you

Would be with you

To make you feel total

Forever, forever

Hence, love, my dear, love !!

O' My Love !

You are real, as I am

Love is a phenomenon,

Not personification

Exists till we are one

So let us be forever

Hale, healthy and happy

To keep our love forever

Hence, love, my dear, love !!

O' My Love !

Mere imaginations and memories

Don't make-up life

Body nurtures on real food

Mind on real relations

So be on the ground

With joys and smiles

Among real things around

No frustration but elations

In every experience of life

Hence, love, my dear, love !!

O' My Love !

World is so large to find

Newness of what is lost

If you keep your chase

For what doesn't exist today

You are sensing a mirage

To become another mirage

To find nothing, to reach nowhere

Without a blaze

Hence, love, my dear, love !!

O' My Love !

Life is too long to live alone

Or with dissatisfaction of the heart

Need to pursue instinctive notions

Without feeling forlorn

Illusions don't work

In matters of emotions

Path is rough and tough

Need to pair to move on

Like legs, arms, eyes and so on

Hence, love, my dear, love !!

Why I Go Wrong Always !

Things are not as I suppose

Things go not as I propose

I often go wrong in understanding

People, faces, words and acts

I was swayed by a person -

She said, this is not me but my profession

I was swayed by a face -

She said, it is not me but a mask

I was swayed by words -

She said, these are not mine but of poetess me

I was swayed by an act

She said, this is not mine but of my compulsion

Hence, I go wrong always -

Things are not as I suppose

Things go not as I propose

What has gone wrong with me

Or the people around

I pondered over to find

I move on classic unitary line

Without playing dual roles

Same outside as inside

Same in word and deed

Same in seed and feed

Not smart indeed

Hence, I go wrong always -

Things are not as I suppose

Things go not as I propose

People around are modern

Diplomacy their favorite term

They play duel, triple or quadruple roles

With none knowing what next

They change color like frogs

Bark and shake tail like dogs  

Better managers, better reference terms

Not individuals strong

But institutions and firms

Hence, I go wrong always -

Things are not as I suppose

Things go not as I propose

I loved, she said -

I too love you but I am married

Fail to comprehend her words

If love and marriage are inclusive

Why she loves me

And if exclusive, what is the hesitation

Anyway, I had said -

Keep your marriage intact

And let us love as we like

We happily agreed

With she playing duel role -

As a wife and a beloved

But under covers confidential

With sympathies, I love her intense

And I conclude -

Marriage and love are exclusive

With none else agreeing with me

In open, concurring in mind

Again a play duel

Hence, I go wrong always -

Things are not as I suppose

Things go not as I propose

Beauty in Innocence

Intelligent people think

To lose their natural innocence

Tactics and Strategies make their life

Away from natural living

And its fragrant fluorescence

Through thoughts so sterilized

Humanity is badly insensitized

Still, all is not lost

There are sensitive people

Wholly humane with their innocence

Imprinted on their beautiful faces

Know not tactics, strategy or intelligence

Keeping human spirit alive

Thro' their work of integrated diligence

I saw such a face of a human-being  

Thought - the face appears own

A persona satisfies my lovely dream

Without knowing her well

Suffixed adjective 'purity' to the gleam

Since then, the image makes a human icon

I value her, let none else reckon

Purity, integrated and composed

Still struggles in the cruel world

For her existence  

Calm and quiet, never reposed

Never says a word even if provoked

For she, a flower fearing thorns around

Eager to tear her apart

Purity too wishes to smile and laugh as others

With her modesty and serenity of mind

So pretty looks she with smile suppressed

Iconic Monalisa steals the versatile

Whatever be in her mind, she never tells

Therefore none knows her so well

Yet I feel to put my humble hand on her head

To say that I am here to help in feeling sour

Any time, any way, in her life

In her struggles, in her strife

For I am that thorn to protect all flowers

Platonic Love

Soaked in thoughts of you

Body missing, just emotional view

Stripped off my love from lust to make it pure,

Needing nothing worldly crust

Touches, kisses but a feel just

Feel you close to me like never before !

Exposure enlightened, no need of covers

For separate identities of ours

With oneness of our minds and souls,

Making now a unit complete

Free from worldly ties in feet

Ceasing to have individual roles!

 Physically we are far apart

Closeness needing always dart

Time running fast, can't wait for unity

In command of my arrow n bow

The oneness I am having now

Can't be sweeter any vanity!

I become you when you are with me

But with you away, I feel blessed

By what you have never been to me -

Sensuously kissing fully pressed

Kiss seeping deep in core of me

Playing with every pore of me

Makes life fully unstressed!

Dream of our togetherness

May not come true in foreseen future

But never mind, my darling sweet

Age belongs to our love, let dream find no nurture

Lifelong be our isolation

Still we love, we love in still

Races of time n space

Would never cope with our skill!

I am the Thorn made for Flowers

Rough tough a thorn

As I am born

To protect flowers

From enemies unknown

Who hate me, gave me the name

For I am there to punish them

For misdeeds against flowers

And make them defame !!

Flowers are mine

Live in my heart tender

Make me feel happy

For the service I render

Every color so neat

Every fragrance so sweet

Of flowers residing in me

Are my messengers !!

I am disciplined

Like others to be the same

By agreeing or for fear of force

As civilization progressed

On helm of discipline

Curtailing wild source

Of natural force

Wild past of life on the Earth

With discipline, found worth !!

Flowers are source of life

So tender and sweet

Everyone wants to cheat

To possess and to hold in grips

To sip the nectar from

To bite the petal lips

And thus destroy the source of life

I am here to keep watch

To keep the life going on

By protecting the flowers

Without will to possess

Without wish to own !!

I respecting as source of my life

As reason for my existence

As responsibility on my shoulders

An above all

As my equal companions forever

Hence I make them smile by my gaze

Make them laugh by my pinches

Make them to feel high by my humility

Wish them all the best

For ever pleasing the humanity !!

Flowers on the Earth

Never fear of me

I won't touch you for making scratches

But for your caressing pleasure

Putting you on canvas of my mind

Making your sketches

Fear me not for I love you

I adore you, I honor you

I bow for you to be with me

As a lion bows for the lioness !!

If You wish to Go

If you wish to go

For any reason you know

You go, get blind

Without caring for my sow

Seeds of love in your mind

But please don't tell me lies

To convince me

You get busy as time flies !

Not finding time to love

Being too busy to sit in peace

Are mere excuses for a strife

As there can be none

Having no time to love

It being an essential part and parcel of life

Please keep a chance alive

In future if we meet in some hive

We are able to say hello with smiles

Without shame of deceiving

Without grievances in piles

You have the right to choose

From my love eternal 
And offers from others

Like a preying goose !

It is an art of management

Not to say in words

But through change in facial expressions

I sensed a sudden change in you

Not a word on lips

Anger under great repression

I understand the reason

But assert my right to self-esteem

Would never have a compromise

Whatever be the temptation !

I am a World in myself

Not a part of the wretched World

You like it or not

My thought makes my word

And action based on that word

The World is so large

To provide us spaces exclusive

So why deceive you or me

Feel free, why excursive !

In a love affair

Right to choose is not open forever

It is today but sealed for future

So think today

Twice, thrice or times many

Before being a part of me

For making life a symphony !

Dreams far from Real, hence remain Unsold

Dreams may be liked by many but not me

For seeing a plot of destiny behind

Turning away me for nothing to find

I wish to embrace reality, sleeping or awake

Reality defying dreams, sorrows unfold

Dreams far from real, hence remain unsold !!

Dreams may be wishes untold or future unfold

But serving no purpose, though shine like gold

Desist dreaming if in active control

But, alas ! in dreaming, I find a role

These come and go like shades of clouds float

Dreams far from real, hence remain unsold !!

Dreams, dreams, go away let come in real

Clear passage blocks for imagination flocks

You are not loved for your control defiance

Or, make us work up like plans reliance

Plans work, even day-dreams unfold

Dreams far from real, hence remain unsold !!

Once a reality is lost, in dreaming frost

Difficult to catch on , go on paying the cost

While in bed, senses disturbed, cause a dream

Avoid dreaming, providing body ease and clean

Body comforted, mind finds peace untold

Dreams far from real, hence remain unsold !!

If dreams, sweet dreams is my dream desolate

Whispers, storms, thunders, scream ultimate

Because reality is deceiving again and again

Life has to go on, dry or pleasures regain

Desires arouse, control lost, imagination unfold

Dreams far from real, hence remain unsold !!

My Friend Annemieke Van Schooten

Second of Profiles of My Friends as Midnight-Impulse

Annemieke Van Schooten

The joy well Defined

People are not the same, all

Some keep in their slumber of comforts

While some others keep awake for a call

What makes a difference in terms, long

Is in health, slumber pulling toward death

Awakening enriches life, away from wrath

Yes, my dear Anne, it is where we meet

Our paths align, smiles forever, so sweet !!

You are a role model, in health and thoughts

For the suffering humanity going to clots

Like herds, conforming yet called humans

Know not their caliber, know not true sermons

You are love, you are light, for foes and friends

Humble are your ways with folded hands

Yes, my dear Anne, it is where we meet

Our paths align, smiles forever, so sweet !!

Your life is not limited by age and years

But continues forever wiping tears

For those suffering for vested misguidance

You are the knowledge against ignorance

Thus, you would be residing in memory

From generations to generations like ivory

Yes, my dear Anne, it is where we meet

Our paths align, smiles forever, so sweet !!

I remember your words - we are soul-mates

But of out of this world, where only love persists

With light and hope, all souls surging, converging

To be equal mates with dominance none insists

This is the apex of all relationships, far and wide

With no names of individuals, on platonic joyride

Yes, my dear Anne, it is where we meet

Our paths align, smiles forever, so sweet !!

Insult to Diffusion in Love

It has been so not once, not twice but again and again

When I diffuse myself in your love, you act like coming in

For throwing me out of your mind, after you get entertain !

You ask me to wait when go for something like a meal

Never to return, to show your disinterest in me

To force me to leave you free from madness of my love

I go away to respect your wish with my feelings oppressed,

But again when you wish to play with my emotions,

To get benefit of my weakness for you, you call me again

For throwing me out of your mind, after you get entertain !

You never realize what you have been doing

Torturing me to nothingness close to my death

In the name of your love, tossing me up and down

Pushing me into the worst agony of my life with a wrath

I pray, please don't strangulate me with your chain

For throwing me out of your mind, after you get entertain !

Me too a human-being, though sublime in love for you

I am emotional, wish a treatment I do in your presence

Have limits of tolerance, for waiting, while being ignored

I can bear anything but not insults to my sentiments

For waiting in your love, you keep on enjoying my pain

For throwing me out of your mind, after you get entertain !

You have cut me off from the self, with your game

I am frustrated and disgusted with none to help

So please leave me alone, go your own way

With those favorites who you feel are fair to you

Your game has been crushing me to inflict unbearable pain

For throwing me out of your mind, after you get entertain !

Since such a matter are thorns among flowers of love
Need quick resolution through expressions like 'sorry'
From the person under the cloud
In game of love, there is no winner or a loser
Both win or lose together with the result allowed.
None must be allowed to feel down or in drain  
For throwing me out of your mind, after you get entertain !

Pain of Loneliness of my Kingfisher

Pain of my Kingfisher

Many years have passed in this symphony

Living in my garden, a Kingfisher gives me company

Sitting on a tree branch, keeps me watching

Some resemblance in life, he seems feeling

Feeling some sameness of pains and pleasures

In our minds as memorial treasures

I too watch him curiously

Feeling his pains of loneliness seriously

Through a psychological bridge in between

For nine months a year when none needs him

Only activity he often involves, I found

Every twenty minutes or so, flies he down

To my garden bath tub full of water, for a quick dip

And returning back to the branch to dry up for the next trip

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He keeps quiet like me, sitting alone

As if the life has no purpose, no mission own

For nine months a year except the weather spring

When a counterpart needs him as procreator being

She comes, sits with him on the tree branch

Makes him happy with promise of loving trance

Emotions played upon, his pains worked upon

Thinking his days of loneliness are gone

He agrees to the need

Provides to her, his procreative seed

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He takes her to his apartment reserved

Safe and comfortable, private and undisturbed

In wall of bore-well in the garden

Treating me as his appointed warden

They play inside, often go for outing together

Cheerfully with plans for long future together

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Eggs are laid and hatched, babies are protected

And fed with insect delicacies by him selected

With hope of having a family life forever unobstructed

But, as the spring comes to end

Babies learn flying becoming independent

She takes the babies and flies away, flies away

No request of staying heeded, she got what she needed

Yet, I hear her saying -

'Good bye, my love, I would come,

When I need and find else none'

Leaving my Kingfisher alone, dreams shattered and gone

With tears silent, sitting on the tree branch alone

All alone again, like me since ever forlorn

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People come for entertaining themselves

Through playing on my emotions and pains of loneliness

And go off to find better pastures

Leaving me with my lone gestures

This has been happening with none to help

Still I bend to fool myself

With some hope, but all in vain

Like my kingfisher's pain

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How Painful, It Is to Love

How Painful, It is to Love

A worker toils the whole day for making their two ends meet

At the end of the day

Body exhausted, flowed out all the sweat

Finds none to see the work and pay

Goes back home empty handed, nothing to say

To their empty belly, adds few sips of water

Which hurts, rather than eliminating the hunger

You may say 'sorry' to them and laugh out the matter

But it hurts me, leaving me scatter

For I know how much painful it is

For a lamp to burn waiting without hope fuel

Like trying to satisfy the hunger with water cruel

Because I am the worker who toiled

Craving in the dark night, how I coiled!

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A poet dries up their blood shedding tears

Whole night to empower poetic words, evading fears

Morning arrives with full composition of morrow

Finds the World too lusty to listen to the poem of sorrow

What to do of the poem, and the emotions expressed

Composition valueless today, in future would it be assessed

The words made of blood bite them back, like dogs hound

You may say 'sorry' to them, and laugh the matter out

But it hurts me like spreading darkness, switching off light

For I know how painful it is to write the whole night

And find the World illiterate to the poetic words tried

Because I am the Poet who composed

Reverberating words, dark night, how I silently cried!

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A lover waits for their beloved

Whole night feeling bluffed

Brute Sun arises with emptiness all around

Disappears the hope of arrival of the beloved

Wonders why they are there, what may be their role

Weeps in loneliness, none to tap shoulder to console

Lover's life lost in waiting, not even a shout

You may say 'sorry' to them, and laugh the matter out

But it hurts me like taking away somebody's birtright

For I know how painful it is to wait for the whole night

And find the beloved having nothing to realize

Because I am the lover who waited

Streaming tears, blank life, how I capsize!

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Love beyond Mortality

Heard thousands of times 'I love you'

With every love dying some day

Thought the clause is futile

Having no hopeful way

Stopped 'I love you' saying

For our love would finish never

We exist or not in the Cosmos

Vibrations of our love

Would be here forever, forever

Would be teaching lovers

On how to love, love forever

With our love continuing to exist

I exist, my beloved exists

We exist in unison

thro' vibrations of our love forever

So powerful is that love

Nothing capsizes it,

Nothing paralyzes it

Remains as intense as it is today

Beyond any apprehension

Beyond any imagination

Love dies of those

Who behave dead while loving

Following what is dictated to them

With no thinking of their own

With no innovation in loving

Dropping a few drops is their love

That procreates more dummies

Dead like the fathers

Their Love that begins with sex

Bases itself on lusty needs

Putting bodies before the mind

Once the need is over, love too is over.

Our love is different -

Began with feelings soft and delicate

For each other,

Evolved into a need for care and share

That aroused fantasy of sex passionate

Thus our love puts mind first, bodies later

We have been loving for generations

With nothing to repeat, nothing to follow

Actions new every ever forever

Because we are alive and floating

We have a supercharged brain

Of millions and millions of neurons

With every neuron telling us

A new way of life, a new way of loving !

Sometimes, we are as fine as spider thread

And steel strong at other

Sometimes, we laugh in ecstasy

At other, weep holding hands together

Sometimes, we are thunder storms

Dead still at other

We are new at every moment

Our actions are different in every second.

Only common factor in our love

Is togetherness of we two

No thought of none else

No tempt from some other

This factor provides unique strength

To our love to live forever, forever